all those tremulous stars still glitter

and now for something completely different

2009-11-06T12:08:00Z

Why yes, I do have a very eclectic taste. XDD

Things Jeanette Winterson writes on her website:

So what is the answer? Is identity a deceit, a make-shift, and should we hurry to make any pattern we can? Or is there coherence, perhaps a beauty, if it were possible to find it? I would like to convince myself about myself but I cannot...

In between freezing and melting. In between love and despair. In between fear and sex, passion is.

What is it that you contain? The dead. Time. Light patterns of millennia opening in your gut. Your first parent was a star...

-- I have just... fallen in love with that woman all over again. Or remembered, with full force, that I love her. Because I really, really do.

(* I started to read her when I was twelve, and I've never stopped. In a way, she raised me. I feel connected with her, I grok whatever she says and I generally love her to pieces. And the horrible thing is that now, after those thirteen years of soaking my brain in her writing, I CANNOT WRITE A POEM THAT WOULD NOT MAKE ME SOUND LIKE SOME KIND OF A "SECOND-SZYMBORSKA"-WANNABE TO SAVE MY LIFE _^_')

THE BALL

As long as nothing can be known for sure

(no signals have been picked up yet),

as long as Earth is still unlike
the nearer and more distant planets,

as long as there’s neither hide nor hair
of other grasses graced by other winds,
of other treetops bearing other crowns,
other animals as well-grounded as our own,

as long as only the local echo
has been known to speak in syllables,

as long as we still haven’t heard the word
of better or worse mozarts,
platos, edisons, elsewhere,

as long as our inhuman crimes
are still committed only between humans,

as long as our kindness
is still incomparable,
peerless even in its imperfection,

as long as our heads packed with illusions
still pass for the only heads so packed,

as long as the roofs of our mouths alone
still raise voices to high heavens –

let’s act like very special guests of honour
at the district firemen’s ball,
dance to the beat of the local oompah band
and pretend that it’s the ball
to end all balls.

I can’t speak for other –
for me this is misery and happiness enough:

just this sleepy backwater
where even the stars have time to burn
while winking at us
unintentionally.

waeter @ 2009-11-05T10:35:00

2009-11-05T09:40:16Z

*dies* This is Art.

schulz!high

2009-10-21T16:18:21Z

I might have posted this already, but a. it's possible I haven't, and b. even if I have, some of you might have not seen it, and some of you weren't even on my flist in the first place, so, yeah, I'm repeating myself without remorse. :D Because you can't live not knowing about Bruno Schulz.

Through a dark apartment on the first floor of a tenement on the market square, every day of that whole great summer, there passed: the silence of shimmering veins of air, squares of radiance dreaming their fervid dream on the floor, a barrel organ melody struck from the deepest golden vein of the day, and two or three measures of a refrain played over and over again on a grand piano somewhere, swooning in the sunshine on the white pavements, lost in the fire of the deep day. Her housework done, Adela threw a shadow over the rooms, drawing down the linen blinds. Then the colours descended by an octave — the sitting room filled up with darkness as if plunged into the luminosity of the deep sea, still dimly reflected in mirrors of green, while all the torrid heat of the day went on breathing on the blinds, swaying gently to the reveries of the midday hour.

Bruno Schulz, Cinnamon Shops: August

Przez ciemne mieszkanie na pierwszym piętrze kamienicy w rynku
przechodziło co dzień na wskroś całe wielkie lato: cisza drgających
słojów powietrznych, kwadraty blasku śniące żarliwy swój sen na
podłodze; melodia katarynki, dobyta z najgłębszej złotej żyły dnia; dwa,
trzy takty refrenu, granego gdzieś na fortepianie, wciąż na nowo,
mdlejące w słońcu na białych trotuarach, zagubione w ogniu dnia
głębokiego. Po sprzątaniu Adela zapuszczała cień na pokoje, zasuwając
płócienne story. Wtedy barwy schodziły o oktawę głębiej, pokój napełniał
się cieniem, jakby pogrążony w światło głębi morskiej, jeszcze mętniej
odbity w zielonych zwierciadłach, a cały upał dnia oddychał na storach,
lekko falujących od marzeń południowej godziny.

"Squares of radiance dreaming their fervid dream on the floor". "The deepest golden vein of the day". "Swooning in the sunshine on the white pavements, lost in the fire of the deep day".

How much more perfect can you get at... uh, not even describing things, but, like, transmitting the images and sensations straight to the reader's brain? Not much, IMO. If you don't know what I mean by transmitting images straight into brain, if you can't feel it, ~~then I'm not going to get it ;)~~ then there's no way I'm going to be able to explain it to you, because Schulz just tends to leave me at a loss like that.
But I hope you do get it, after all. :p

Oh, and if there is someone who blows you away like that, feel free to share. Let's exchange the experience. :D

son histoire ;))

2009-10-18T20:28:51Z

Blaise Zabini. My, I've just realized, favourite secondary character from, well, the Harry Potter fanon, mostly. Because, since he's a Slytherin, the canon probably portrays him as a moron.

I think he's like Eponine from Les Miserables. ;) I think he suffers from a one-sided crush on Draco Malfoy, one dating from, like, the moment they met as first-years on the Hogwarts Express, or in the parlour in the Malfoy manor, or in the gardens around the Zabini manor when the initially purely professional acquaintance of their fathers' gradually turned more private -- or wherever it was that they firt met.

They Had a Connection. And at first, it was completely platonic for both of them, and then it stayed so only for Draco.

I think Blaise wanted to try and stop what he saw starting to happen between Harry and Draco; he wanted - and maybe actually tried - to convince Draco he doesn't love Harry, and/or Harry doesn't love him; he tried to seduce him, to win him for himself, and maybe even almost succeeded, and they Had a Thing for a while.

And then he realized that Draco is never really going to be happy with him - that he's never going to be happy with anyone but Harry - and while Blaise was a Slytherin and had it in himself to be selfish and cruel, he also had it in himself to let the person he loved go where he knew they truly belonged.

Maybe he even helped them get together, in the end.

And then, say, he died in the war with Voldemort, coming to the good side with and mostly for Draco, and, finally, giving his own life for him.

Just like Eponine. ;)

Oh god. Now I really want a fanfic about this.

Also, this was, somehow, triggered by this gorgeous art by this amazing artist (she's also the author of this awesome Merlin fanart, omg, check her gallery right now :O)

oh despair

2009-10-12T19:47:43Z

...hokay, and here's something completely different:

A bit of old news. But it doesn't matter. It's kinda timeless.

Church Rescinds Peace Funding Over Gay Speaker

...

gleeeeeeeeeeeee!

2009-10-12T19:27:21Z

Glee 1x04

Kurt. KURT. KURRRRRRT! \o/ And his performance of "Single ladies" (which I think is better than Beyonce's ;p). ~*OMG YAY*~

Yay for Kurt's dad, too. I loved how they handled it, that you can be a rough-tough-save-the-world/alpha male type, and still have it in yourself to accept somebody else's homosexuality. And that he just accepted Kurt (almost) from the beginning. I love the message it gives.

OMG the dancing footballers. XDD

Glee 1x05

OMG KRISTIN CHENOWETH (the presence of, that is. And the singing of, of course. I didn't really care for April as such).

Yay Rachel behaving like a normal person again. 'Cause I was kinda losing my patience with her already.

OMG YAY THE SONGS. "Maybe This Time"! "Somebody To Love"! And -- well, okay, actually, I have a complicated relationship with the songs in Glee: on one hand there are the ones from musicals, which I so don't have a problem with it makes me hyper, and then there are things like "Single Ladies", which I, normally, wouldn't even consider listening to if I could avoid it, and ...then they'll appear on Glee and here I'll go and listen to them, and even start learning the choreography (from the Kurt Version. Beyonce can't move). :O

The Glee!high is the only way to excuse it.

i am excessively gleeful

2009-09-28T18:12:57Z

GLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XDD

OH MY GOD. First Patrick Wolf, now this. I take this as the Universe's way of sending backup for my anti-common-sense campaign. ;) WELL OKAY UNIVERSE. ~~You couldn't be less subtle~~. GOT IT.

my name is zuzanna and i really like to drink

2009-09-24T19:23:07Z

A silly meme, stolen from megan_moonlight

A: You like to drink
B: You like people.
C: You are really silly.
D: You like to drink.
E: Damn Good Kisser
F: You are dead sexy.
G: You never let people tell you what to do.
H: You have a great personality and good looks.
I: Fuckin great in Bed.
J: People Adore you
K: You're wild and crazy.
L: Everyone loves you
M: Best kisser ever.
N: You like to drink.
O: awesome kisser.
P: You are popular with all types of people.
Q: You are a hypocrite.
R: Fuckin crazy.
S: Easy to fall in love with
T: You're loyal to those you love.
U: You really like to chill.
V: You are not judgemental.
W: You are very broad minded.
X: You never let people tell you what to do.
Y: Best g/f b/f anyone could ever ask for.
Z: Always ready.

Z: Always ready
U: You really like to chill.
Z: Always ready
A: You like to drink
N: You like to drink
N: You like to drink
A: You like to drink

...I think I have a problem.

[eta because I couldn't help it]

B: You like people (check)
R: Fuckin crazy (check)
A: You like to drink (I don't know but if he does, ~~he doesn't beat me anyway~~ then, as you can see, we have plenty in common)
D: You like to drink
L: Everyone loves you (check)
E: Damn Good Kisser (~~omg I hope so~~ I have no idea but given that everything I've ever learnt about Bradley James is various degrees of awesome, this one is probably true, too *firm nod*)
Y: Best g/f b/f anyone could ever ask for (...as above :D)

This one is actually eerily accurate, isn't it?

waeter @ 2009-09-22T21:10:00

2009-09-22T19:48:15Z

About this. Uh, wtf, fandom? Overreacting/misunderstanding/jumping to conclusions much?

Ok, for the record: My Opinion:

+ I don't think Bradley is homophobic. I didn't get this impression from that quote, nor from anything else he said/did, and, seriously, I need a lot more evidence to write somebody off as a homophobe. Especially that all the other things he said seem to indicate the opposite. Which is, btw, why fandom kinda annoys me at the moment. They seem to have been just waiting for somebody to slip and say/do something not 100% perfect. I don't like it when minorities/minority rights activists do it - getting so politically correct that they start end up as the aggressors, not the ~~aggressed~~ victims. I mean, really. Chill out, people. It's making us look ridiculous.

+ I think what Bradley meant was that he doesn't really feel like making out with Colin, with whom he's good friends. That's what I got from the tone in which he said it. It wasn't a big, serious statement. It was just something he said half-jokingly. Spontaneously. Without thinking. He's a Libra, they tend to be like that (I happen to have had one as a girlfriend, and I totally recognize a few common features between Bradley and her - ...er, shut up if you think this is the reason I'm so crazy about him, btw :P - and yeah, blurting out/doing things without thinking is one of them). :p Anyway, I'm really not surprised he's not exactly thrilled about the idea of doing a slashy scene with a good friend - I wouldn't be, either. Not because I'm homophobic - I'm not, I'm bisexual and have no problem with it whatsoever; on the contrary, I'm kinda... defiant about it :D - but because I wouldn't want to do it with somebody who is my friend, in the completely asexual, aromantic sense of the word. I'm not sure if I can explain why. It's just that even thinking about it feels completely wrong to me.

+ It seems that... a large part of the fandom actually expected something more-than-friendly to happen between Arthur and Merlin. Well, I didn't. As much as I'd love to. Because this show was not meant to be a tool in any sort of political/social campaign, and it's so loaded with stereotypes/inaccuracies/easy solutions anyway that I just ...gave up trying to treat it seriously the moment I watched the first episode. I don't expect it to be historically/mythologically accurate, I don't expect it to break stereotypes -- frankly, I don't expect it to be anything but fun.

Yes, ok, I think that's it.

What do you think?

waeter @ 2009-09-19T16:02:00

2009-09-19T14:04:19Z

KLIKAĆ

lols forever

2009-09-18T18:42:26Z

Oh, Bradley. I love you. :'DD

waeter @ 2009-09-18T16:54:00

2009-09-18T15:26:02Z

Sharing is caring

For one week, recommend/share:

Day one: a song
Day two: a picture
Day three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day four: a site
Day five: a youtube clip
Day six: a quote
Day seven: whatever tickles your fancy

From Patrick Wolf's "The Libertine":

The circus girl fell off her horse and now shes paralysed
The hitchiker was bound and gagged, raped on the roadside
The libertine is locked in jail
The pirate sunk and broke his sail

But I still have to go
I've got to go, so here i go
I'm going to run the risk of being free

And from "Wind in the Wires":

This wild electricity
Made static by industry
Like a bird in an aviary
Singing to the sky
Just singing to be free

And from "Teignmouth":

From my window
I saw two birds lost at sea
I caught our reflection
In that silent tragedy
But with hope prevailing
I draw galleons sailing
In full sail billowing free

-- From "Wind in the Wires", an album about me.

waeter @ 2009-09-17T21:21:00

2009-09-17T19:57:34Z

Sharing is caring

For one week, recommend/share:

Day one: a song
Day two: a picture
Day three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day four: a site
Day five: a youtube clip
Day six: a quote
Day seven: whatever tickles your fancy

I was going to rec one of their videos, but, since they are too awesome for words, I couldn't decide, so I'm just reccing the whole channel of the Improv Everywhere group that "causes scenes of chaos and joy in public places".

These people IMPROVISED A MUSICAL IN A PUBLIC PLACE. How totally fantastic is that? *____* *worships and would join them, like, IMMEDIATELY if she lived in the USA*

waeter @ 2009-09-16T15:32:00

2009-09-16T13:56:06Z

Sharing is caring

For one week, recommend/share:

Day one: a song
Day two: a picture
Day three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day four: a site
Day five: a youtube clip
Day six: a quote
Day seven: whatever tickles your fancy

I'm fantastic at doing this meme, I really am. _^_'

Anyway, the site:

Couchsurfing. A blessing for poor students (and other people who want to spend their money in a more interesting way than paying for their hotel room), and an awesome idea in general. From their FAQs:

the idea solidified when founder, Casey Fenton, got a cheap ticket to Iceland for a long weekend one April. With his ticket in hand, there was one problem: he had no place to stay and no desire to rot in a hotel all weekend and play Mr. Tourist. So, he came up with the 'brilliant' idea of spamming over 1500 Icelandic students in Reykjavik and asking them if he could crash on one of their couches. After exchanging emails with many of the students, he had several groups of friends offer to show him 'their' Reykjavik. So, after spending an amazing, crazy weekend just south of the Arctic Circle, Casey decided he would never again get trapped in a hotel and tourist marathon while traveling. From that point onward, it was all about crashing on exotic couches and cultural exchange. And, thus, the CouchSurfing Project was born.

la petite mort

2009-09-11T19:56:00Z

I can't help

DYING

each and every time

I see a picture

of him

T______T *DIES*

[eta because I forgot about the meme, in which I've skipped a day already, so]

Sharing is caring

For one week, recommend/share:

Day one: a song
Day two: a picture
Day three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day four: a site
Day five: a youtube clip
Day six: a quote
Day seven: whatever tickles your fancy

As for the picture (as if I haven't just fulfilled this point to an insane degree XDD), I'm going to shamelessly steal the idea from leandergasped and present to you my childhood photo.

As for a book/ebook/fanfic, you all need to read something by Gaiman, if you still haven't. The Graveyard Book or Neverwhere, preferably. Or Stardust. Gaiman... creates magic. Really.
I'm generally more intellectual than emotional, and thus rather tough and immune when it comes to thrills caused by descriptions/depictions of fictional events, and there are few writers who can really do something to me on the emotional level, but as much as I can't help DYING at the sight of Bradley's face, I can't do anything about the way Gaiman's writing immediately enchants me and chains me to the story. It's magic. It really is. :))

...NOW AS FOR FANFICTION. :D

As for fanfiction, I'm in an endless awe of the skills of the following authors:

+ Killa, the author of a Kirk/Spock fanfic that is such pure BEAUTY and PERFECTION that it's, hands down, one of my favourite pieces of fanfiction in any fandom, and maybe even of writing in general. And it had me emotionally involved, oh yes. I read the first part NOT KNOWING IT HAS A SEQUEL. If you read it, you know what it means. o.o If you haven't, I'll say that I literally couldn't sleep that night. And I'm generally tough and intellectual, mind you. I ...don't know what it could do to more emotional people. o.O

+ Maya, the author of unforgettable Harry/Draco fanfics, after reading which, for a long time, I wasn't capable of liking stories by anyone else. Reading Underwater Light ended as the first time in my life I went from not understanding why people like H/D to absolute craziness about it. And absolute LOVE for Draco Malfoy. Because you can't, you just CAN'T not love Maya's Draco.

+ Derryere, whose At Least It Would Seem That We Don't (which is totally one of my everlasting favs, too) was the first story over which I cried because it's so COMPLETELY and ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL. Not because of angst. Because of beauty. And that was a first for me, too.

It's not like there aren't tons of other authors I love - especially in the Merlin fandom, that is a friendly and talented and generally positively-energized wonder ♥ - but I'm afraid that if I start listing them now, I'll never end this post. So I've just picked the cream of the cream.

waeter @ 2009-09-01T22:06:00

2009-09-01T20:23:32Z

"Love...
...love...
...aaand hate...
...aaand hate...
they're like two brothers...
...brothers...
...who go on a date
...who... WHAT."

*cries* Oh lord, I LOVE Avenue Q XDD

Also, Ann Harada has one hell of a voice. o.o

waeter @ 2009-09-01T09:59:00

2009-09-01T08:00:24Z

*nie może*

waeter @ 2009-08-28T22:51:00

2009-08-28T21:08:57Z

Miłość to ptak, którego nie ma.
A jednak słucham jego śpiewu nieustannie wznoszącego się ku niebu.
A jednak mój chód jest cieniem jego lotu na ziemi.

Miłość, Vesna Krmpotić

Love is a bird that doesn't exist.
And yet, I listen to its voice endlessly rising up to the sky.
And yet, my walk is a shadow of its flight on the earth.
Love, Vesna Krmpotić

OH GOD I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS POEM

I first heard it on the radio, years ago. I didn't know the title nor the author and I'd been trying to find them ever since. I've just stumbled upon them by accident.

I love it because it's so simple. So sharp. So solemn. And so striking.

And I can't even relate to it - it's not about me, I don't feel or think like that, these aren't my associations - but the way it sounds, the way it feels, does something sublime to me.

legally speaking

2009-07-30T16:45:04Z

Writing fanfiction and showing it to people is ok as long, as you don't profit financially from it, right? So how is charging for commissioned fanart ok, from the legal point of view? I've been thinking about it for some time and I keep ending up deciding that I don't see any difference between any forms of fannish creativity (fics, art, vids, craft, etc.), commissioned or not. I mean, if a commission made a difference, fanfiction writers could charge for fics written around plotbunnies provided by other fans, and so on.

I'm also wondering about translations - I mean, let's say I have a translation office, and somebody comes to me with a fanfic. Let's also say I'm not in the fandom and never heard of fanfiction before (which would prove my literature professors' lacks in knowledge of what's going on in contemporary literature, but nevermind ;)). As the author of a translation (for which I've been paid, obviously), not of the fanfic itself, am I breaking the law? I am confused.

waeter @ 2009-07-21T19:49:00

2009-07-21T17:52:18Z

I wish showing your professor your translation of an R-rated slash fanfic to evaluate, correct, and generally provide (professional) feedback was something normal and accepted in our society. Yeah.

waeter @ 2009-07-19T19:30:00

2009-07-19T18:15:00Z

Ok, talking about Bradley James and the scandalous, can somebody please tell me ~~why was Bradley lubricating his fingers in the middle of a convention~~ what the hell was Bradley doing here:

Because it looks interesting. :DD

Also, kinda unrelated (well, non-scandalous, anyway), but I've stumbled upon pictures of Sophia again, and ...uh. I might be the only person in this fandom who couldn't bring herself to hate Sophia as much as the rest, being too busy staring at her hair, lips, skin, and generally finding her extremely attractive. And who in this scene:

might be almost as happy being in Arthur's place as in hers.

waeter @ 2009-07-19T14:14:00

2009-07-19T13:11:50Z

- I had a dream with Bradley James in it, a few nights ago. Nothing ...scandalous, though. Pity. :(

- Then, the next night, I had a dream about Colin Morgan. Nothing scandalous, either, but as a Bradley-girl, I am not bothered.

- I still haven't seen ...er, the new Harry Potter (*has totally forgotten what is the title of the sixth Harry Potter o.o'* *this is probably because it's the only part of the cycle she has only in the form of an e-book, and when she read it, she had it borrowed from somebody, but still*). I also haven't seen the new Star Trek, so I'm getting a bit behind with the fandom. ;)

- I have recently seen 'Imagine Me and You', though, for the second time. Strangely enough - because I don't like to re-watch movies or re-read books (at least not from cover to cover - I just re-read and re-watch fragments that I especially like, from time to time) - I feel like I might watch it yet again. Given the fact that I harbor similar attitude towards 'I Am Dina' (go watch it, no, really, WATCH IT, if you haven't. It's an incredible movie) or 'Elizabeth', which belong to my favourite movies, it's seems that a romantic comedy has entered the list of my favourites, omg, honoez, how lowbrow.

(Watching movies like "Imagine Me and You" when you're not in a relationship is, btw, at the same time a bit comforting and a bit discomforting thing to do. ;)

What's definitely discomforting (but still lolarious) is mother not entering your room for the first hour of the movie (when noone kisses anyone, or if they do, they do it chastely, and heterosexually), and then entering precisely when the main characters start snogging furiously (and non-heterosexually) and rolling around on the floor.)

waeter @ 2009-07-13T21:05:00

2009-07-13T19:04:07Z

The cast of Going Postal has been anounced! And, well, I've never seen any of these people in action. XD So I'll just judge by the looks now. :p

I absolutely love the woman who's going to play Angua:

Here's a pic where she looks more ...Adora-Belle. ;)

...Who totally doesn't look like the Moist in my head (and in Kidby's art. Or in Tealin's fanart*) - btw, is it just my imagination or was he blond in the books? - but I don't find him repulsive nor anything, so I accept. v.v

* Who else thinks John Barrowman would make a perfect Moist? :D

ciemna strona pomidora

2009-07-13T18:28:20Z

...Mam inne poczucia humoru. Takie bardziej ...salonowe. I to nawet kilka. Naprawdę. Ale mam też takie, przez które na widok takich rzeczy jak:

+ Blog Sex Tips for Zombies

+ "Grzmot w nocniku" albo "Zgwałcili mi tatę" jako nazwa zespołu

nie mogę przestać kwiczeć.

I swoją drogą, "Najgłupsze nazwy zespołów"? o.o O co im chodzi? Dla mnie większość wymiata. :D

i am so excessively diverted this icon doesn't begin to cover it

2009-07-05T16:20:40Z

OH GOD. OH GOD. I'VE JUST DIED.

Oh, Bradley.